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[16 Nov 2005|04:57pm] |
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today sucked. call the cell if u even fuckin care enough 2 ask.
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| today... |
[27 Oct 2005|03:39pm] |
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wow...all i have 2 say for today...
BEFORE CLASSES: didnt get 2 c karl...
CHORUS: we sung...it was dumb...then ms cunningham told me tht i needed 2 go 2 the office before second period...at 9...so i did...remember how i went 2 the "nurse" on tuesday but instead i went 2 the caf so i could tlk 2ppl about what was going on? well...they found out, but b/c mr burgeron knows me and like loves me i didnt get a saturday ed...lol just a regular dt...
FRENCH: took a test...jenny flipped out b/c i actually did better thn her...
LUNCH: (-.-') i didnt c karl until doug walked up and told me tht he needed 2 tlk 2 me...so i went 2 find him...and he said he thinks we should "take a break" so yea im guessing im single...call for more details...the weird thing is tht half of me is sad tht he did and half of me isnt. i mean, i was tlking 2 morgan about it on the fone yesterday and we concluded tht i was guna breakup wit him at the end of 2day, but he got 2 it first...lol. BUT im half happy tht he did it (b/c he was kind of being an ass 2 me but not tht much) but sad about it (b/c i liked him obviously...lol) well, then i went and sat with jake...i still dont want karl 2 kill him tho...lol.
ECONOMICS: jenny walked me 2 class b/c karl u know didnt...lol then we took a test tht i think i like failed lol then i sad behind jake and i talked to him, then me and evie had a writted conversation on jakes arm...lol basically about how i love him more...lol then we watched a movie, then we walked 2 the library to do this gay stock thing...me evie and jake walked down the hallway holding hands...lmao...then me and jake had a written conversation on evies arm...lmao and we werent paying attention so mccormick was picking on us and asking jake everything.....lol. then i kept writing "i love you" on jakes arm...lol. then i kept HUGGING jake, then jake walked me 2 my locker, then i hugged him again...then jenny walked me down the stairs saying how cute it was (i think) lol then i almost pulled jenny down the stairs, then i walk down the stairs and karl is RIGHT there...lol. idk if he saw me tho...but hey he dumoed me, he shouldnt care...
SCIENCE: i was on time!! lol then i didnt get anything...
AFTER: walked around...hugged ALL of my guy friends...i like kissed keith, then i noticed tht karl was right there...oops...lol. now im at home tho and sams here...so thts ok...lol.
call if u wanna chill this weekend!
its unbelievable
but i believe you
its unforgivable
but ill forgive you
its INSANE wut love can do
tht keeps me comin back to you....
meow(-,-)
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| bored... |
[24 Oct 2005|01:48pm] |
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today was boring...
MATH: karl walked me 2 class then we did stupid math shit as usual...
CHORUS: sung...
ENGLISH: saw karl...went 2 read about the odyssey
FRENCH: got a 27% on a test...i mean its french i usually get this shit
MUSIC: saw karl...again...lol then he made me go 2 class.
ECONOMICS: saw karl...he made me go 2 class...watched the GAYEST movie in the world...
LUNCH: same as always, but it was weird b/c denise and brian broke up...
SCIENCE: saw karl...lol it was funny...i still dont get science tho...
other thn tht...homecoming was ok, but i kept having mood swings (those who i want 2 know...already know...lol) and jake kepy grinding with my best friends...lol. i know i cant b mad at him for it ot any of my friends, but it still hurt u know? lol...OMG MARC DIED HIS HAIR PISS YELLOW!!!!!!!!!!!! lmao...
o yea...and the impossible happened...me and harli are friends again...
and i start working at dunkin donuts on either wednesday or saturday...but i work from like 7AM until like 12 so it wont bother my social life...lol
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| HOMECOMING!! |
[22 Oct 2005|05:17pm] |
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homecoming is in like less thn 2 hours! lol. sam might be sleeping over...lol. ima go finish my essay now tho...so i can u know go...lol.
MEOW!
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[20 Oct 2005|08:50pm] |
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today was my brother's bday and i got 2 c my nefew, sister-in-law, aunt, cousin,uncle, and my mom and sister but there here all the time...lol.
im full...lol.
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| at the library again... |
[14 Oct 2005|04:15pm] |
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karl asked me out on wednesday like right after i updated last...i said yes obviously...lol.
other thn tht....
me and ashley almost got in a fight yesterday....then sam got in the middle...then karl started yelling at ashley....
after tht, i got home and me and ashley were bitching then she said something then i told her something then i started crying...lol then we bitched again.
idk i dont wanna b friends with her. all the fuckin stress tht EVERYONE already has is big enough...i dont need the fights tht me and ashley have everyday on my shoulders 2...lol.
anyway, ima go now...my mom will prolly b here soon.
....cant think of a song or a lil poem 2 put in 2day....lol
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[01 Oct 2005|07:24pm] |
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jennys mad at me...read hers for details b/c i dont want 2 accidentally say something tht didnt happen and get her even angrier at me...like last time...idk rele nothing more 2 say except i rele like someone else besides jake....lol
sometimes i wish i could live forever....
be here when the world falls apart...
then other times i wish i could die now....
because thts the only way to heal a broken heart...
(i wrote tht...steal it and die...)
i hope ur not mad at me anymore jenny...u r the best friend i have EVER had and i dont think i can loose another one of those...(-.-')
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| today.... |
[26 Sep 2005|04:16pm] |
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yea in at the library right now...lol. i got asked out today but i told himi would have to think about it and tht i was still sad about bobby wich i am...lol can anyone guess who? i know sam can...b/c she was there but thts ok...anyone else? i got 2 hugs fromjake today^_^! yay! well thts pretty much it for now...lol
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with.....
WUT DO I DO?????
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| dont feel good..... |
[12 Sep 2005|02:42pm] |
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nothin has happened in a while....but yesterday i went 2 the movies with jenny and evie 2 c the excorcism of emily rose...it was good! lol i think so atleast. i have 2 do my hw tho...im going 2 jennys soccer game if i finish in time...lol
<3 Steffie.......
hehehe
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| my highschool schedule |
[30 Jul 2005|06:06pm] |
First semester
1 Algebra1 CP ((Packard))
2 Chorus A ((Dugal))
3 English 9 CP ((Cloutier))
4 French 2 A CP ((Ed-daff))
5 Music Fundamentals ((Cunningham))
6 Economics L-Z CP ((McCormick))
7 Lunch
7 Study ((TBA))
8 Physical Science CP ((Floras))
Second semester
1 Algebra1 CP ((Packard))
2 Chorus B ((Dugal))
3 English 9 CP ((Cloutier))
4 French 2 CP (Ed-daff))
5 Gym ((Nicolazzo))
6 Lunch
7 Civics+Govt CP ((Sousa))
8 Psisical Science CP ((Floras))
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[20 Jul 2005|10:39pm] |
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ok...now chad HATES me, i feel like shit, and jon is making me feel better...i dont rele get y chad dumped me and i dont think he gets tht i still care about him and just said tht i was guna fuck around wit ppl at the beach just 2 say it and i didnt mean it. ppl who RELE know me kno tht i do tht...so basically no1 rele knows ne thing about me. if u think u do tell me so i can laugh at u. no not rele just u kno tell u a few things about u thtll make u b very surprised...
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
but its possible for it to break more...
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[16 Jun 2005|09:13pm] |
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im making my lj friends only now so sum ppl cant read it...if u wanna stay on my friends list or rnt on it now and wanna b tell me and ill keep/add u lol
i luv u chad
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[13 Jun 2005|09:39pm] |
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idk wut 2 do...well i kno wut i have 2 do but i dont wanna do it b/c its just guna come bak and bite me in the ass...i juss got bak from modells and chillis a lil while ago...i got a bat and sliding shorts...stuff i needed...lol and my bat is awesome...im so fuckin tired i cant even shower rite now...im getting up early 2maro 2 take one dont worry...lol
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[13 Jun 2005|03:19pm] |
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2day was weird...at skool i almost started crying and i didnt kno y again, ppl r tlking 2 me tht have never tlked 2 me b4, it was boring b/c ashley wasnt there, looking at britney makes me wanna puke and fills me with enragement, i am FLIPPING out on sum ppl 4 the stupidest things, and ppl r telling chris tht im guna break up wit him...tht pisses me off and wut pisses me off MORE about it is tht he is believing thm over me...and ppl keep telling him tht im treating him more as a friend thn a bf and hes telling me tht...and thts making me think about it and it confuses me and idk wut 2 think..ahhhhh im sweating sooooo bad rite now! i ran 2 toms house b/c i had 2 give him sumthing and i had 2 take the long way b/c i 4get how 2 get there thru the woods! lol well after i ran back, im sitting here at the computer in my bra and shorts and sweating like a whore...and im in the coolest room in the house! lol well i gtg do my hw so i can go 2 modells 2 get me sliding shorts, a new sliding pad, a bat and maybe a helmet 4 softball...ill write more later or 2maro! lol
ITS NOT THI SAME WITHOUT U AT SKOOL ASHLEY!!!!!!! aaaAAAhhhhh
need 2 hurry and do hw! i have PLANS!! lol
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[12 Jun 2005|09:06pm] |
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kinda bored...lol i went bra shopping b/c my other ones were 2 small and thy were killing me and wen i was getting measured my mom told the girl tht my other one literally broke in halfwhere the 2 cups come 2gether and she said "wow i never heard of such a thing...well lets go over here 2 the industrial strenght!" lmao it was so fuckin funny...i went 2 the pride game on friday wit jenny and we had a good time and i played catch wit billys sister ((shes so fuckin cute!)) and we tlked 2 jayson morse and chris perkins ((perky)) and stuff...omg this whole vegeterrian thing isnt working! lol my family has meat everyday and it SUX! lol so i guess ill go back 2 being a u kno normal human being...4 now...lol...friday was very surprising...sum1 said a few things 2 me tht made me wanna cry ((in a good way)) b/c i never knew thy cared like tht (no not ryan...), my dad hugged me for the 1st time in a while and tht made me wanan cry 4sum reason, i started feeling bad 4 my sister, im thinking about things ive never even cared about, everytime i think about this one certian thing i get dizzy and have 2 lie down or sit down, and chris wasnt tlking 2 me! lol it was a very strange day...lol but ne way mu title is idk wut 2 do b/c...well idk wut 2 do! lol wit a few things tht im thinking about tht ive never cared about b4...i didnt pitch at my game on saturday...sarah was there (shes the like best pitcher in the league) and wen she got tired we needed a new catcher (b/c r other one was tired like u wouldnt believe) and the next catcher would only catch 4 her sister...lol i was happy i didnt have 2 tho...it was too hott lol. i mite pitch wednesday tho...it would b my first game pitching and were paying a team tht we beat twice by the 10-run rule...perfect game 4 me 2 start pitching at! or we mote play another team...not sure yet...lol but ima go 2 sleep now b/c im sleepy and im hoping my dreams will tell me wut 2 do...
i luv u chris
PS ashley!!! its guna b so boring without u in school! lol on tuesday or wednesday i can ask the teachers and my mommy if i can bring home ur HW so u can stay wit us while ur u kno not there...i have a practice at reeds ferry tht day so my mommy shuld b fine wit it...if u ask call me or comment in this lol I LUV U!!!
Jenny! im glad were friends again!! wen we werent it was killing me!!! lol
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[09 Jun 2005|09:02pm] |
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im tlking 2 chris rite now!! lol im sore...my leg randomally started hurting after i slid in2 3rd...idk y tho...and i got the best catch of the season...and 2 of the best hits of the game...i might pitch next game!!!!!!!i stayed later thn usual and i pitched 2 my caoch and he said "y didnt u tell me about this earlier in the season? theese r all strikes! we coulda used an arm like tht!" lol it was great! lol and JENNYS COMIN OVER ON MY BUS 2 MARO!!!!! lol me and chris r 3-way callin her 2 tell her 2 get a note lol...and thn shes comin 2 the pride game wit me!!!! YAY! chris gets bak in skool 2 maro!!! YAYYY!!! lol ahhhh i slid in2 third at the game and hurt my leg again...lol it hurts...it burns!!! lol but ima go 2 sleep now...lol
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| i hate ppl |
[08 Jun 2005|07:26pm] |
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ok 2day was kinda weird...kevin wouldnt stop junp-starting me, ima kick some girl tht i dont eveb kno's ass b/c shes fucking around with shit tht she shouldnt b ((4 u ashley and anna)), me and jen r tight again, i think ppl r getting pissed at me again, my softball game got rained out, i almost cried 2day in LA and i have NO CLUE y ((i just started 2 feel tears in my eyes, chris prolly thinks im cheating on him ((wich im not!)), i had tht chorus thingy, and as soon as i started 2 get really sad it started 2 rain...lol. this whole thing wit chris is confuzing me...he doesnt think i really like him, he prolly thinks im cheating on him, ppl r telling him tht i broke up wit him last time b/c i was "bored", and i think hes just pissed at me...idk wut else thyre telling him...ok on the bus one day i was sitting wit nicole 4 the like first time in a month and she asked me y i broke up wit chris. i told her tht it was a long story tht she didnt need 2 hear and tht she should just shut up...she wouldnt stop asking me y i did thn i just said 2 her "u kno wut i was bored" and she said "really" and i said "NO! im not like tht!" and b4 i told her even tht i was oviously fuckin kidding i hear her telling paul who was sitting wit daphne i think who prolly heard it 2...i was fucking looking 4 a way 2 shut her up not get sum1 2 think tht i b/u wit thm b/c i was bored...omg thn this whole thing wit ryan also makes him think tht i dont like him ne more but RYAN IS JUST A FRIEND!!!!!!! ahhhh! y is there always fuckin drama in my life? I HATE IT! i havnt even really tkled 2 ryan...2x wen he called me but tht was 4 like 2 minutes b/c i cant use the fone till im on the bus...and online once 4 like 10 minutes but thts IT! ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!! ne way im kinda depressed right now and i only kno part of it...the chris thing...everything else is unknown 2 me...
i luv u chris
PS jen my mom said u can come 2 the pride game...call me if u can...im cleaning the house so u can hopefully come home on my bus friday...
PPS ASHLEY u have 2 call me...cant call u...am i going over 2maro?
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